Turn off the lights and turn off the shyness, cuz all of our moves make up for the silence...ooh oh oooh ooh oooh...

Whoa, its hump day. This week is going by sloooow. So today nothin much happened. We'll see how stuff goes. Uh, work was aiight. The end.

Tengo una fiesta in my tummy! haha. Tres. Me gusta!

Oh I never got to talk about my weekend. Well, it was WAY cooler than yours boit. haha. Friday I worked boo, then drove to see my baby. It was nice to just go to his house and chill, you know eat watch some stuff and just hang out, thats all I really need. Im not one of those girls that need expensive nights out and whatnot, I just gotta be loved, and I'll love in return. Anyways, that was nice. Made it home on time yeeyah. The next day, Saturday, was time for Disneyland!! wassha! So we all woke up early, gheez, and met up there. OMG Alex is the coolest person! Mickey took me by surprise, I saw all the lil kids maddog me haha. I pretty much rode everything I wanted to minus Splash Mtn, 2hrs is not gonna cut it. I had so much fun with my family, and my boyfriend. WOW. hes a trooper. I mean, it meant so so much to me that he actually hanged out with me and my fam. That takes a lot. 16hrs with him was heaven. It was funny too. I love our picture, that first one yuck. haha. 2 Thumbs up. Space mtn was awesome, what a rush lol. The wait was worth being alone with him. It was funny too, I didnt have to ask to separate from the fam, they just made me go lol. Ok, whos the smart one who gave me coke and a churro? haha. mm. EVeryone had a good time i believe. It was the best for me. OMG the bestest was the fireworks. Dayum it was soo cool, all around they were. The best part about the best part was he held me the whoooole time. Yup, it was so...yeah. sigh. double sigh. Thats all i wanted all day. Was to have him be affectionate towards me, cuz sometimes i dont think he wants to, like inline for space mtn. So I was a bit triste. Oooh man. Yeah. Im a happy camper. Anyways, we shopped, well i did, STITCH is sooo cute. Yeah. Fun stuff. I wanna see how the pics turned out...

Ok I decided I have the good life, duh.

Oh, I wanna go to the beach this weekend. Hmm, beach by day club by night? eh eh eh?

Its just past eight and Im feeling young and reckless...

Why dont you show me a little bit of spine youve been saving for his mattress, love?

Ooooweeee one down. Ok. She finally talked to me. So are things ok no se. It was aiight. What to do about the birthday and what i want? I duno. gheez. I was sad, duno why, I seem to do that sometimes. Well for one, she hadnt talked to me since Friday so I was like huh? And then, well, how he messes with me sometimes, I duno which ones to take seriously unless he sets me straight. Dont get me wrong, I like it when he messes, cuz then if he doesnt and i dont, damn thats boring. But it kinda got to me talkin about his bday and clubbin and whatnot. I mean, I never had to worry about that before thats why i was iffy. I want him to have fun, but not taking me dancing with him, on his bday, yikes, that cant be good. Do you know how many girls id have to shoot, runover, and chuck stuff at? Gheez. Call me overprotective but hey, get off my koolaid, best believe it, cant say i dont care. I was thinking about doing that for my birthday since Alma brought it up before, like have a girls night out thing, but it wouldnt be cool without him. I dont wanna dance with other guys, i want him. Thats all i need. Duno if thats what he needs, but hey. Thatd be mean too. Well it doesnt matter now cuz its not true, I think. Just got scared. I hate my overthinking. Boo you whore. No me gusta being 18ish, cuz i keep him behind. Blah. Thats just my thoughts for tonite.

Dinner with the pamilia on Sunday. Wonder how thats gonna be. Yikes.

Aahh what to do? Ugh, I'll complain about bdays later. lol.

Anyhoo, work was chill. Ashleys cool. I got fillings in my teef. They feel funny. Numbness is weird, on yo face. Damn flea. My hairs wet. I want nice flip flops. I noticed girls kinds are either tall or over decorated. WTF. School in 3 weeks. No more social life. tacoma go bye bye. I was hyper. But shot down. I guess im stupid when im hyper. Oh well.

Waaaaaasshhhaaa!

Wish me luck manana. .. ... .

SURPRISE!!! *gasp*

haha. I have the bestest bf in the world. True story. Its the little things that count. Anyways. Today was ok. Did stuff at home then took the little ones to Target and to get ice cream. mmm. ice cream. Ok, some guy in the cd section said what sounded like hola to me and these other guys had the nerve to make such faces, as my sister demonstrated, at me, look and say stuff, no me gusta. Come on, i was with two little girls. Guys are stupid sometimes i swear. So I got this killer headache, yeah, no me gusta tambien. Plus I didnt get to talk to him before work. So I went into work all out of it and just yeah, they all noticed. It didnt go away till later on. Maan. Oh oh, and as i was closing out the register, I was soo ready to say, sorry sir we're closed but oooh man, Tony walked in and and yeah, surprise! Hes so coool! I couldnt stop smiling. And no i wasnt blushing haha. Wow. Just, cool, way cool, me gusta. Mmm so that was cool. Away from my happy trip now. I must complain about my parentals. Ok, Im a nice gf, I hope, I dont want my bf driving all the time, so when the oppurtunity comes, i'll drive. I wish. But noooooo. Its more of a hassle if he drove here then went back that way. My mom just doesnt understand, and my fam likes to assume shit. Anyways, its like i'll never learn, well, be able to drive at night cuz 'crazy people' are out, but hell, i know they worry and care, thats cool, but when will i learn? I mean, i should try now and get used to it. Grr arg. Ok. No more complaining, but i hate not being able to go places, i'll pay for the freakin car i swear, but noooo. Shiiiet. I miss him lol.

Yesterday was chill. Monday was too. Nothin much goes on. Booo.

Im out. Woooo Im so essited!

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I wish on a star that somewhere you are
Thinking of me too

Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you ever see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
would you see what's inside
Would you even care?

I just wanna hold you close
But so far all I have are dreams of you
So I wait for the day
And the courage to say how much I love you
Yes I do!

I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Me gusta, me gusta mucho. My weekend was suuuh-weet! No shit. I mean, ok, you talked me into it...

Friday Im in LOVE: As I recall, the Alma and I were tryin to hang out again but our plan failed, again. Didnt do much that day, had a late start. No me gusta the mall. It was hot. But my hotter date was on fiya! Yeah, four months and good. It was funny in the beginning, with VTEC and such. Oh what the random, how the heck do we click that way? Its cool tho, very creepy, still cool. So hungie, we went to El Pollo Inka. Dude, who serves rice aaand fries aaand chicken in one plate? They do! Mmmm. The one candle that everybody else had was still romantic, haha. We ate and cruised around PV, I love that place, ooh the memories, stars so perdyful. OMG OMG it was the cutest thing at the one place with the firework and cliff. Sigh. I mean, the things he said, etc, err neveryoumind. The night was Magical...pssshhh, It was aiight, you kno, it was coo, on the real yo, faaack, hit me if i ever talk like that. For reals tho, it was perfect, almost. haha. Minus the girl with the civic, lol, booo, jota k jota k. My bad for being asian and not drivin a rice rocket, although I thought, wanted, and was gonna before. But heey, would he like it if i was constantly looking at a dude (haha white dudes gheez) with a nice truck, but oh wait, I was just lookin at the truck lol. jk jk. Im just being a butt, dont mind me. I loved it all. Just being with him.

Saturday: Dang did I wake up early, but not as early as everyone else lol. Even tho I had work at 7am. Gheez its so boring. So I kept myself occupied till Corey came, he made me eat. Man I was ooout. Really. Everyone else came, that was cool, we talked, did the damn thang, and yeah eventually 2pm came around and I went to AE. Pero, I didnt feel like shoppin shoppin i guess, weiiird, and thats like my favorite haha, so I looked aimlessly. Then got my ass to get some cookies for us. I was a bum when I got home, kinda eh cuz people seem to like arguin here, then my fam left and I was still out. Later my bennybooboobooboobooboo came and we chilled a while. OMG he ate asian food! S-s-say whatt? Yeah, it was cooool. I was shocked, and hope I didnt force him lol. I swear my family smothers tho, they gotta stop buggin. We went to LBTC later, ooh man, it was the place to be for lil ones, gheez. GRr arRg he beat me, in everything! No me gusta! haha. Got some Starbucks, oops, and randomly later on some Dennys. But it was cool to reminisce, i mean, dang, that tc has some memories. mmm, is it bad to not be like most girls? Eh, no me gusta attention, but i wanna be noticed, does that make sense? What do i do for his bday! AH! My bad about the gas stations tho. Shiieet. Then guess what, I was way OUT again.

Dia del soool baby: it was hot! not so much. So church right. Theen what had happened waas, I dont get filled in on anything anymore, so when I tell him things its like in pieces, and isnt fair to his knowledge. Ok now tell me why we have to leave right after church when the party was later on, I had planned to pick him up, si he still wanted to go, but nooo, too much driving for me, supposedly and no time. WTF? When am I gonna learn how to fucking drive? I like driving, shhh, I always say I dont pero I do haha, but nooo I cant go anywhere, I understand cuz they pay and stuff, shiiet, i didnt ask for it, how am I gonna prepare for later on huh? Gheez. Anyways, I could go on about that driving shit. Ok so he ended up not going. And theeen they have to go and bother me about it, gramma to be exact, like why doenst he go, is he really that shy? Gheez, its hard, they just dont understand, its overwhelming meeting ur 'significant other's fam, esp if its mine, dun dun dun. Its ok he didnt go tho, I woulda bored him. It was nice to see booboo and co. My aunts on my side on helping me get me tacoma, i swear i'll earn it, im a good kid, really. haha. That whole thing was funny tho. I was nice to hear his voice. Ok, i was out once more, i mean having 11hrs of sleep total the last two nites dont cut it. So uh i went home, called him, and knocked out. uh then eventually drove my ass to his house. Me gusta! haahaa the New Guy. fuunny, what a weird boy, weird movies. Anyways it was cool just to see him. My bad, I did good the last two nites with curfew, and then they get on my ass about this one. Boo, and Im not an embarrassment, and I dont do things to embarrass people, gheez, that talk again. Not cool. Ok in all it was a good day cuz I saw him. Im complete. I was bummed i wouldnt be able to. I wanna take him to breakfast. AHH! Whats he doin to me, I never liked breakfast lol. Yikes. Damn this was long. Im out.

Baby youre so HOT you make the SUN jealous!

Yeah, whateva. mmm, todays a really special day, but lets talk about thursday shall we? Well what had happened was absolutely nothing! Gheez silly. Oh man, no me gusta (I mustve said that a billion times that day). It was hot, still is, my fans whack, and shorts and a tank aint cuttin it. Necesito una pescina. Is that right? haha. So I did nothin, well, laundry, and that was a bitch cuz its really hot to fold warm clothes. I think Im gettin what I used to get when i was littler too, my skins not used to the heat anymore, for example, the last two years ive worked in an ACed building, y ahora, nope. Anyhoo. For some reason theres always work to do around the house. Work was cool ironically. The down part was i was really off a lil after i started, some kind of a headache or something i was just out of it. I missed him, but had nothin to say, so that started off kinda eh. So Jesse and I talked about relationships. boys, girls, what we want, etc. Yeah, I was kinda concerned about if guys were to act different around his girl and his friends, so I asked him. Itd be mean if they were to, so I hope it doesnt happen. I mean, go ahead and act like a badash around ur friends when im not around but if i am, dont be scared to hold me like you usually do, i dont bite...hard. hahaha. Still Im sure chicks everywhere are concerned about it. We also talked about how a little bit of jealousy is good. I agree, it shows some type of care, dont be mean, but still. Hell I get that way, especially since theres other girls out there bound to be looked at that look was better than me, but im with him, ME, thats all the fuckin matters. Ok, getting carried away. Yeah, he tried makin me laugh, that worked, eventually I got ahold of some caffiene and all was ok. Took him home. Its hot. Ok is it me or is everything 21+ these days, well screw you biot. haha. No me gusta. Thats mean. I feel bad cuz I dont make the cut for him. Oooooo, I feel so loved. Firstest of all you know sometimes you just dont believe, well you do believe but sometimes its just like whoa. Ok that makes no sense, but now I know its for reals. Thats good. Me gusta. haha. Oh no, im introuble, its like 1ish and im not sleeping. Big day today, cant wait. Must get beauty sleep, hopefully it helps. Late.

I want you to know that, I miss you, I miss you so.